I recently traveled back to my old recovery hub in Beaver County, and traveled that way to check in on how my friends in recovery are doing at the old house I used to live in , and around the area in general.
I wish I could tell you that these updates were good.
I live on front lines of the battle between sickness and health, and today I’d like to paint the picture of the sad reality I have had to come to terms with over the past year of my life in recovery. My trip back to Beaver County was a scary wake up call for myself to keep doing the next right thing to stay strong and healthy, and I hope this post serves as a certain wake-up call for you as well to be honest with yourself, and to see what may be standing in the way of living the healthy life you deserve to live as well.
I have had to come to terms with the sad and unfortunate reality that most of the women I met over a year ago in early recovery are gone, and I am one of the few left that are still here, in one way or another, on planet earth.
Some of the women that I believed that had such good intentions for their own lives, have unfortunately lost their minds to their substance of choice. They may never again return to a state of reality or sanity due to the sheer, organic damage done to their own brains. They have mentally checked out. . .PERMANENTLY.
Some have ended up in state correctional facilities for relapses that lead to major probation/parole violations, or relapses that lead to even more heinous criminal activity. They are living the real life episodes of Orange is the New Black.
Some of these women have wound up dead. D-E-A-D . Dead, never to see the light of day again. One of them was a former house mate of mine, a woman who was present for a number of my own meetings where I picked up coins and key tags. I’m still not entirely over the shock and grief of this.
Programs have taught me to be rigorously honest with myself in order to stay healthy and alive no matter what. I wonder too, how we can apply the same idea of being rigorously honest with ourselves in terms of our strength training and nutritional habits. Are we truly at a level of optimal physical health, or are we denying the reality that we are still sick? Are we truly living the life we are called to live, or are we too afraid to admit that we are struggling with old habits, or being around the wrong people, places or things?
Are we truly being honest with ourselves?
My hope for you reading this post today is to ask yourself if you are being honest about the habits you are trying to learn for the betterment of your own health. My hope is that you do not wait for your circumstances to get so bad that you become truly sick from poor health choices, because it may be too late to fix those circumstances when that time comes. My hope is that you reach out to the right coach, the right medical professional, the right course of action to be the strongest, healthiest, most powerful version of yourself, free of any debilitating disease. We just simply have to be honest about who we are, where we currently are with our health, and what we are willing to do to change our habits for the better.
Dig deep. Be rigorously honest with yourself. Life is simply too short to waste it all away.